I Never Knew My Kid’s Poops Would Cause Me So Much Anxiety

Until you become a parent, you don’t realize how much poop will affect your life. The consistency, the frequency, and the color will take on such importance that you find yourself obsessing about it. Sure, you buy the diapers and understand that changing them will probably be gross, but you don’t really know until you do it. You also never knew how much variation could be in poop and what the different nuances of it could mean.

You didn’t know that your child pooping could make or break a day

The helplessness that I feel is overwhelming

It makes me anxious, which makes him even more anxious. I have cried more than once, and he tries to comfort me, which breaks my heart a bit more. The inability to make everything better for him makes me feel like a failure. Not knowing how to help him better creates such despair.

As moms, we feel guilty about everything, and our kids’ bowel movements are no exception

I feel bad that he feels so lousy so much of the time. The fact that he makes it worse by holding it doesn’t do much to expunge my guilt. I still feel bad, but my anxiety just makes it worse for him. The best I can do is try to remain calm and hope that he figures it out. Waiting for him to grow out of it is hard and frustrating, but he needs to learn it for himself, and I need to let him.