When my first child was born, the only way he would fall asleep was if he was bounced up and down in my arms. Sometimes I would gently set him down, positive he was asleep, and he would jerk awake. As he got older, he needed to lie in between my husband and me, one hand on each of us in order to sleep.
We broke him from this habit just before his sister was born. I felt horrible about it, and it was torture, but I didn't think I could get him to sleep if she needed me to get her to sleep, too. The only way I could get her to sleep was if she was swaddled in her fleece blanket and walked back and forth for at least a half hour. If she would wake up, we had to repeat the ritual or her crying would wake her brother.
When your child needs you in order to fall asleep, it can be lovely and difficult at the same time
Remember, it's hard for everyone
Remember you are human. And remember, especially when you feel like you can't do it anymore, there will be a day they don't need you to lay down with them each night.
They won't ask you to count to a million, or read five books to them. They will get a drink and go to the bathroom on their own, and checking for monsters under the bed and tucking them in eight times will be something you used to do.
They need you to help them feel secure and safe, and you are doing just that—even if you don't stay with them as long as they'd like. Nothing is wrong with them for needing you at bedtime, and there's absolutely nothing wrong with you for craving time without them some nights.
My kids are older now and sometimes I miss how much they used to need me like they did when they were little. And when they crawl in bed with me now, after they've had a bad dream, or they ask to sleep in their sleeping bags on the floor next to my bed and have a slumber party, my answer is always yes.
It will always be yes.
