Having a miscarriage can be a devastating experience — and also something that many woman don’t like to speak about. But since October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, Kylie Kelce decided to bring light to the topic by opening up about her own miscarriage for the first time. Even though it happened years ago, it still makes her emotional, even today.
Kylie shared the story on her podcast.
On this week’s episode of Kylie’s Not Gonna Lie podcast, she said that the first time she got a positive pregnancy test was in August 2018, and after visiting the doctor’s office at six weeks pregnant, the baby looked normal, though they did measure a few days behind.
When Kylie and husband Jason Kelce traveled to London where the Philadelphia Eagles were playing, she took the opportunity to tell their family the exciting news. “We made it a point to surprise Jason’s mom and dad when we were there by pretending to take a photo and telling them that we were expecting,” she said, adding that when they traveled to Cleveland, they told Jason’s brother, Travis Kelce, by giving him a pair of baby booties.
At her next doctor’s appointment, the baby didn’t have a heartbeat.
When Kylie went to her 12 week check up, the nurse was unable to locate the baby’s heartbeat with the fetal doppler.
“I remember being like, ‘Oh, there isn’t a heartbeat. You didn’t find one because there isn’t one,’” Kylie explained. “They estimated that the baby had stopped developing between, I believe it was nine and 10 weeks. Essentially, I had had what you would refer to as a missed miscarriage. It means that your body did not realize that the pregnancy was no longer viable.”
To make the situation even more painful, this happened on Jason’s birthday. “It was hard for both of us,” she said.
The experience affected the way she felt in her subsequent pregnancies.
Though Kylie would go on to have four healthy daughters, every pregnancy she had was tainted by the worry that a miscarriage could happen again and “messed with my brain.”
“So for Wyatt, we did not share that we were pregnant until I was after 20 weeks,” she said. “For consecutive pregnancies, I waited till I was at least 16 weeks. I Googled almost every week what the percentage likelihood was that a baby could survive, which sounds really dark. I literally did it for Finn.”
Years later, it still hurts.
Kylie became emotional more than once while talking about her miscarriage, but at the same time, she wanted to emphasize that those feelings are completely normal.
“I emphasize the fact that this still hurts after having four children, because it does. And it’s okay,” she said.
